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Posted by

oncedevil

Why are you so stuck on this?

Posted by

witnessme

Wh-why are you so stuck on staying away, huh?

Posted by

oncedevil

I've already answered that.

Posted by

witnessme

Well, uh, I don't like your answer. I think it's really dumb.

Posted by

oncedevil

Doesn't change it.

Posted by

witnessme

Well it should.

Posted by

oncedevil

Why?

Posted by

witnessme

Because I want it to change! Doesn't what your friend wants matter to you?

Posted by

oncedevil

I could ask you the same here.

Posted by

witnessme

You dummy! It's because it's not really what you want!

Posted by

oncedevil

How do you know?

Posted by

witnessme

I know you! Besides, no one wants to exile themselves. Don't be stupid!

Posted by

oncedevil

Yeah well, we don't usually get what we want.

Posted by

witnessme

That's an OK thing to say when life is throwing shit at you. Not when you can control what happens!

Posted by

oncedevil

And how long do you think that'll last? It doesn't last. It's gonna go to shit one way or another, this way it's on my terms.

Posted by

witnessme

You don't know that Tony. You're just using it as an excuse to run away!

Posted by

oncedevil

I do know that, it's already starting. Besides, I might as well keep doing the one thing I'm good at.

[Which is running away.]

Posted by

witnessme

What are you talking about? I've never seen you run away, even when things were really bad!

Posted by

oncedevil

[He barks a bitter, rueful laugh.]

I used to run away all the time, don't you remember the story? I've been trying to be something I'm not, and surprise surprise it ain't workin' out.

Posted by

witnessme

I've seen you save people. Don't talk like that when we know it's not true, Tony.

Posted by

oncedevil

Like I said, trying to be something I'm not. It was fun while it lasted, really thought I could be something for a change.

But sometimes you don't get to make that choice.

Posted by

witnessme

You get to make that choice! If I could, you can, and I've actually killed people!

Posted by

oncedevil

I've ripped out a woman's throat with my teeth.

[He's a little surprised Nux has actually killed anyone though.]

I've turned on my friends before. You think it won't happen again?

[Other people get redemption not him. That's not how it works.]

Posted by

witnessme

That... that was uh, that was different. I remember that. It was when I was still with Albero and everyone was talking about the transformation that let you escape.

Posted by

oncedevil

Is it though? I tore her to shreds. And I don't even remember how many other assholes who got in my way before I ran out of steam. I would have done the same to you had Shou and Hajime not intervened.

[It's not exactly something he has a good handle on by any stretch.]